Dylan Ted Motsinger

Dylan it took me over a week to say my goodbyes to you.I guess I didn't want to believe it and I wanted it to be the right time to do it.We known each other for seven years and in that seven years we got to know each other so well it was crazy! You knew me better than I knew myself at times,we was married online and had so great times and some really bad ones.You made me who I am today you gave me hope for the future. You always wanted the best for me no matter how disappointed you was in me.We wanted to get married and have this happy little family with kids, but now its to late your gone and all I have is your photos and memories and our tattoo and our dreams we had for us.I also know your always going to be with me like you always have been. You always told me if you died first you would come back as a ghost to see me,well I cant wait for that but I do want you to sleep and rest for awhile you need it.Enjoy it you have been set free its what you wanted if you couldn't have what you really wanted.So I guess I need to say I am sorry to you and your family because I could of saved you like I did so many other times.I know so people will say don't say that it was his time to go. But it wasn't your time we still had so much left to do. We still had so much love for each other!So now your gone and I can't save you any more I cant hear your voices out loud anymore there so many things I don't get with you anymore.I wake up everyday and your one of the first things I think of, so maybe this will help me get over you dying and it will help me keep bettering mine and Darren's life.Also keeping you alive in the world.You always said our life together was one crazy love story and I guess like any love story there has to be a ending I wish you was here but I will be seeing you!I LOVE YOU and I ALWAYS WILL HONEY!