Ann St. Croix

We were as close as two people could ever be. We shared and kept each others secrets, we held each other up through trying times. But most of all we LAUGHED ❤ 13 years ago my world crashed and it was you who brought me back to the bright side. You listened to my pain, you made me understand that it is ok to be happy again, to understand there's no moving on ,there's just living different. It was your understanding, patience, and empathy that rebuilt my world. I would be lying if I said I'm ok, because I'm not. I struggle everyday. But I promise I am clinging to all those things you told me all those years ago. I'm truly working on filtering out the sadness and focusing on all the joy and greatness we shared. I have so many memories that make me smile and sometimes laugh out loud. We sat and talked for hours while inhaling an entire king size bag of M&M's or an entire bag if Tootsie Pops, or your amazing popcorn. We took rides and sat by the lake. The time you chased me around Target in the motorized cart, then again at KMart and we laughed so hard it brought me to me knees. We laughed until it hurt. I am so blessed to have so many more amazing memories. I love that you always held my hand through the good and the not so good ALWAYS. I'm blessed that even though God had already taken you, I got to hold your hand one more time. I had the chance to say goodbye but I didn't. Because you once told me its never goodbye. So I just said I love you. I'm blessed to see so much of you living on in Jessie & Erinn. They are Amazing young women. They truly have your strength and empathy. I know your beaming with pride watching over them and amazing family . I have so much to be thankful for having had you in my life. Its just hard and quit frankly sucks when the person you need the most is gone. I still hurt, I'm still sad. But I am trying to be strong, but you were always my strength ❤ You were my rock, you were my go to, we were truly soul sisters. You have and always will have a piece of my heart. My brain knows what I have to do but my heart is slow to catch up. I hope you are with your Mom & Papa and all your loved ones. I hope your with Debbie laughing like we use to. I wish you were here, I wish I could hold your hand, share M&M's, I even wish you could run me over with the motorized cart again lol. I have a lot of hopes and a lot of wishes I know, but most of all I hope you are at peace. I promise to never forget the AMAZING relationship we shared. Most importantly I promise to ALWAYS hold on to the joy and laughter. I think of you every day, I miss you every day. Most of all I Love You everyday. ❤❤❤